Lizet's Place

Can you drive both a manual and automatic vehicle?
Nope, just an automatic


Do you like to color? Are you doing more it these days?
I LOVE to color! I bought myself an adult coloring book (it's just large pictures that could easily be for a kindergartener) and I do it every morning on an app on my phone

Do you know any Morse code?
No. I know what it is but it confuses me

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Ya'll...when I tell you I was busy today, I WAS BUSY TODAY!

The stuff I ordered on amazon last week is starting to come in, plus Kim and I both got the stimulus, so I was able to buy even more things we need around the apartment and that's ALSO coming in this week (I love amazon prime!)

My DVD carry cases came. I ordered a 6 pack and used 5 of the 6 cases! I know I'll have to buy another one for the DVDs in storage because these will work better than the 12 billion (exaggeration) smaller boxes and reusable tote bags I have them in. According to the description, the 6 cases hold a total of 240 movies, video games, or blu-ray. I HAD 200 DVDs HERE AND DIDN'T REALIZE IT! I'm definitely going to need all 6 cases for what I have in storage!

After I sorted the DVDs, I used the 2 plastic containers for my Color Street stuff. Not all of it fits in the containers, but the area looks a bit better than it did before with about 6 or 7 smaller boxes of stuff. Eventually, I'll get a third container for the last bit of stuff and it can go in the closet.

Yesterday my record player came. I only have 1 record - the one I got at Christmas - and I played it to make sure the player works. It does! Friday, two records I ordered from Walmart arrive. I picked the Top Gun soundtrack and I believe the Dirty Dancing soundtrack.

I really need to spend time in my storage unit looking for my dad's records and his record player. I know he had a good 8 or 9 boxes of vinyl records. I don't know how many of them are still good after being in storage for over 10 years. I know they weren't properly stored, so they're probably warped and no good, but I need to check it out.

I ordered some (Church) shoes and they came today. I love them! I'll now be getting rid of about 4 or 6 pairs of other shoes that have run their course in life. The reason I'm getting rid of so many is because last summer I bought 2 more pairs of shoes but never tossed the old one. In total, I have 6 new pairs of shoes and I haven't gotten rid of any of the older ones.

Coming in the rest of this week are the clothes Kim and I ordered (well really, that I ordered for Kim), kitchen/bathroom cleaning supplies, a bunch of makeup, and a new record from VNYL.

THIS is my Christmas!

Oh! I also bought an LED mirror for when I do my makeup. The last 2 Sundays I haven't been able to do it because of dealing with Kim! So that means I either have to get up even earlier (I currently get up about 90 minutes before Kim) or use the time I'm actually awake to do my makeup, deal with Kim, get dressed, and freshen my makeup if need be before leaving for Church.

Tomorrow I have a dr appt to have an ultrasound of my ovaries. I hope the results get back to my PCP and eventual OB-GYN before my OB-GYN appt on Jan 12.

Then, on Friday I have an appt to see the ophthalmologist. I checked to make sure I have the picture that I took of my eye the last time I had issues with it so they can see what my PCP failed to understand and labeled as allergies and prescribe me drops that make my eyes burn for a couple of seconds after I use them. I've only used them like 3 of the 10 days. If I would have just kept using them, I would have been done with the prescribed time on Jan 3, but the few seconds of pain wasn't worth it. The only thing I didn't do was call and let the dr know. But I'm taking it to let the ophthalmologist know.

So...that's been in busy day...and it's only Tuesday!

So, what do you think? Scary or cozy looking?


Not scary, but weird/creepy

Do you like to dip bread in soup? What makes the best dipper?


sometimes. but only if it's thicker soup. I love using naan bread dippers

What do you use to launder your clothes?


Whatever doesn't have an overpowering scent. And it has to not be too expensive (unless I have "money to blow" after paying bills). I lean more towards the pod versions of detergent.

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So I've got money and upcoming bills that I want to pay NOW but I can't because they've already been scheduled to be debited from my bank on their assigned date. UGH! This happens to me 75% of the time I go to do my bills. I try to give some extra time to allow for holidays/weekends when deposits are going to hit, but then the bank or the places I'm getting money from do it early and I have like 5-7 days of the money having to sit there and tempt me!

AND! I've got late Christmas gifts to myself arriving sometime next week. A smaller/lighter record player, 2 records from Walmart, BoxyCharm makeup, and probably one or two other things I can't remember.

I found the OG Baywatch on Amazon Prime Video. What were my parents thinking about letting me watch this show without supervision at 7-10 years old?! The same goes for Beverly Hills, 90210. I wasn't in the demo for either show, yet I remember watching both at an early age and without adult supervision.

Checking my grades daily. Waiting for the course grade for Business Law...just like the last time I took the course with this professor. The last message she sent to the class was wrapping things up about how she does grading, some last-minute extra credit, and when we should expect our final grades. Which by the way, she said that grades for your class will be posted no later than Dec. 22nd. *looks at calendar* It's December 30th, where are the grades?! I think the last time I waited until about a month after the semester had finished before emailing to ask about grades. I might do that again if I don't have my grade by then.

I meant to go to the bank today to get quarters to wash but I was just so lazy, ate more bad for me Mexican food and slept. I have to go tomorrow because I refuse to go into 2021 with dirty clothes from 2020. I need to wash that bad juju away!

Just wondering
How often do you feel utterly worn down?
I don't know. A couple of times a week?

What makes you nervous?
Letting people down? But then I get to a point where I don't GAF and I'm going to do what I'm going to do.

Do most people tend to overestimate or underestimate you?
Probably both. Kim's sister says that she doesn't "give me enough credit" for whatever I've managed to do. It's almost like a backhanded compliment.

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So I can't remember if I mentioned this or not. My insurance approved the request my dr put in for me to get an ultrasound of my ovaries to see if there are any cysts. Part of me is hoping that many of the issues I've been dealing with are because of PCOS and not me trying hard enough with "diets" because let me tell you, the only time I lose weight is when I've only eaten once or twice a day and that's not healthy at all.

I need to go back to being more active. I want a bike to take rides, but there's no place here for me to store one. The other option is to get an exercise bike. I'd probably use it, but it would end up being a clothes rack or something and take up space.

On the school front, I started to look at universities again. If I figured things out correctly, Spring 2022 is when I'd be able to transfer to a university for my bachelor's degree.

The thing is, I don't know if I should look at universities in California (UC Riverside is tops for that) or look in Arizona or even go to Detroit where my mom is and check out Wayne State University.

I'll be 39 by Spring (January/February) 2022 and my mom will be turning 76 that April and likely need help and it shouldn't fall to her sisters and/or their kids...not when I'm available.

It's all something for me to think about.

Where is the best place you’ve been for taking walks?
I don't really do that. But I imagine the big park down the street from where I live would be great for that...unfortunately they have it closed off to keep people from gathering there.

What did you believe for way too long as a child?
I don't know. I don't remember much of my childhood. But while packing up my parents' room, I did find a letter that I wrote to Santa when I was 9? I don't remember writing it. lol

What elements of pop culture will be forever tied in your mind to your childhood?
America's Funniest Home Videos (with Bob Saget). I will forever remember sitting in the audience during a taping. That was a lot of fun.

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( School stuff. )

( Health stuff. )

Will you be getting any break (time off) for the holidays and do you have any plans?
My life is like one huge time off from work. Last year, though, I made plans to go to AZ for my BFF's 40th birthday weekend (this coming weekend). I was going to leave Christmas night, arrive early Saturday morning, party it up all day Saturday, and come back Sunday. Now we're doing it virtually.

What are your plans for Christmas dinner, if any? Take out, cooking, or something else?
Kim's sister and brother-in-law are coming down like last Christmas. I'm cooking the turkey, yams, and dressing and now pie since she wasn't able to find it but I was (woohoo!). Colleen is bringing down the ham, drinks, mixed veggies, biscuits (since she forgot rolls), and cookies. I think that's everything. She's already dropped off the festive plates we'll be using.

Am I the only one who can't believe Christmas is only four days away?
I can't either. Where the heck has this year gone! It feels like it's been forever...but also like this quarantine/lockdown/whatever just started

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It felt weird not having an online class tonight lol Grades should be posted tomorrow or Wednesday. I'm rather curious to know what I got on my business law final.

I ordered a couple of more things from amazon. This time that's it. I've gotten everyone I wanted to get gifts for. Something is supposed to arrive tomorrow and then another something else will either arrive on Dec 24, or in the days after Christmas. But it is what it is. I was lucky to find anything on Amazon that was still available to have guaranteed delivery by Christmas.

Now I'm going to drink some tea and go to sleep.

Just wondering
What song do you play most often?
There's a couple of songs by some worship/praise groups that I listen to A LOT.

What thing do you really wish you could buy right now?
a new laptop or a car.

What is something that you are passionate about?
I honestly don't know anymore. and I think the last thing I was passionate about was the tv show Hawaii Five-0, but that passion faded a bunch around season 5.

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I forgot to mention yesterday that I got a booster tetanus shot. Hours later the injection shot was hurting and a friend tells me that's a side effect that should last a couple of days. I wish the nurse would have told me that, but all she did was apologize for having cold hands, which they weren't, while she was giving me the shot.

Then today I was met with fatigue. I got up at 7am, like usual, and did my color street work before passing out from 9am-1pm!

When I woke up, I looked up the side effects of the shot. Sore arm-check. Fatigue-check. Apparently, diarrhea is also a side effect, so check with that too.

It said the side effects last a couple/few days and mean the body is working on the antibodies to fight against whatever the vaccine happens to be for.

Thankfully with this booster shot, I'm up to date on all my vaccines and I won't have to get another booster for 10 years. Plus the yearly flu shot and eventually the Covid vaccine if my dr says it's safe for me to take it.

Had a rather interesting/not interesting conversation with my mom. I sent her a message last night as a update to what's gone on re: going to dr and this was her response



There is SO MUCH to unpack with her short little message (the first one) that even talking to my BFF about it gave me a fucking headache. Like, it was so fast, so sudden and so damn strong that I had to a 600mg tylenol for it to stop hurting!

My mom is right I am closed mouth. I learned from a young age not to ask for ANYTHING I wanted, and unfortunately that translated into not talking about anything with anyone in my family because rather than listening to me they lecture me. So...excuse me for not wanting to deal with that with my feelings.

And the reason I'm depressed, in case you're wondering, is because she fucked off across the country like 4 months after my dad died! I get that she was grieving too, but not even a month after my dad's death her siblings are telling her to come home because California is too expensive and from that point she mentally checked out...like she was already in Detroit.

That left me to write up a 30-day notice and later call and ask for a couple more days extension because fuck it's hard arranging movers and packing up the apartment that we've lived in since 1986! BY MYSELF! My cousin, who has a moving company, is looking at me like it's my fault that we aren't completely packed up. Fuck you too, sir! I'm packing as fast as I can and my mom is going through every single thing that's getting packed like we aren't on a fucking deadline!

*SCREAMS TO THE VOID*

So, I'm pissed, depressed (later this comes out) about being abandoned because I lived with my parents all my life then suddenly it's just me. Oh sure, there's my sister, but there was a disagreement because she didn't like how I was talking to our mom.

Then by the end of May, I had to turn to my sister to live ask if I could live with her because my other living arrangements fell through after a couple of days. And more drama piles up after 3 years of living with her...which leads to the 2nd message from my mom...about reaching out to my sister before she leaves to go to Detroit for Christmas.



No. Period. We've been through this before. I'm DONE being the one to reach out to my sister because she doesn't return my calls or leaves my text messages on read for hours or days. So she can contact me when she's not busy. AND she, my sister, had to nerve to tell me to "not be a stranger" and to not just contact her when I need something. Bitch! the only time I've ever asked for anything was someplace to live! And like twice, in the 2 years I lived with her, I asked her for a ride someplace and she acted like I was asking her to take me to San Diego or Las Vegas!

So, you see. Anger. and I know that talking about it to a health professional is going to end with me crying. It does everytime I talk about it.

Happy sigh about getting my hair done in 14 hours

How good are you at eye/hand coordination?
My...what now? I don't think so. lol

What was the last time you tried to pat your head and rub your tummy while hopping on one foot? Or even without the hopping, can you?
Either when I was a kid or when I was volunteering with kids last summer during VBS

What was the last thing you painted?
My toenails like 8 months ago. I thought about painting them red, but then I remembered that I have some bits and pieces left from past Color Street manicures that I can use on my toes...so I'll be doing that instead.

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I've been really apprehensive and procrastinated in doing my business law final exam. I have 2 more days to do it. I definently need to do it tomorrow though, because I don't want to be stressing over it on Thursday.

Tomorrow afternoon I have my lady exam and get the results of the lab work I had done last week. I actually got the results Sunday night, but I could only figure out what 2 or 3 of them meant, so I definely need all of them explained. And I'll be taking a notebook so that I can take notes lol

I need it to be Friday so I can go get my hair done and not think about anything the 3 hours I'll be at the salon.

Oh, I finished Christmas shopping. Now waiting for the things to be delivered. They should be coming this week and sometime next week I'll wrap them.

What weird food combinations do you really enjoy?
I don't know. Maybe eggs and ketchup and hot sauce?

What’s wrong but sounds right?
All you can eat jumbo shrimp haha

Should kidneys be able to be bought and sold?
On the one hand, yes because the person selling the kidney should be able to do what they want with their organs...but then no, because there are people waiting on the transplant list who can't afford to buy needed organs and they could die while some rich dude (who probably got his money illegally) can buy one.

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Today has been A DAY!

I was woken up 40 minutes before my alarm for a video call with my cousins. I was going to decline it but something told me to accept it. So I did, and it was a good thing. It was one of my cousins with an update on her mom (my aunt).

I was closer to her when I was younger and spent time with her during the summer, but other than her being my dad's sister and her coming out for a few days while my dad was on hospice care, I didn't have a real connection with her. So my sister, one other cousin and I got to see our aunt and tell her that we love her, even though she likely couldn't hear us.

Then about 7 hours later I found out that she passed away.


So that's been my day. I didn't get anything accomplished after the phone call. I halfheartedly went through my mail from the last year and sorted what I'd need for tax purposes next year.

Tomorrow is Kim's IHSS recertification. I hope she gets more hours because that means more money for me. What we do not want is for hours to be decreased...although that would probably help me get more CalFresh money, but no. I already struggle with paying my bills. I don't want to struggle even more.

I also have my Intro to Accounting final. It becomes available in 2 hours and 55 minutes, but I don't plan on starting it until after Kim's appointment. I need to think about one major thing at a time

Have you ever gotten any of these for Christmas?


Those are either oil balls/beads or bubble bath balls/beads. We had them in the bathroom, but as far as I know, they were never used.

How about one of these?

I think we also had soap on a rope. They were only used when we were out of soap and hadn't gotten to the store to buy more. So they weren't used very often. I thought they should have been thrown away, but my mom always waited until they dried and put the used one in a Ziploc baggie until the next time it was needed.

I switched to body wash after that heh

What are your feelings on fudge, regular or divinity


I've had fudge before. I like it well enough, but sometimes it can be too sweet for me. and I like it with walnuts.



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I went to the dr today for lab work and a lady exam...only the lady exam didn't happen because, in their records, I am scheduled for that on December 16...but the after-visit summary I got on Nov 5 clearly says that labwork and lady exam were going to be done today so that on Dec 16 my dr can discuss all results.

I wasn't going to argue with them. It wouldn't have taken much to bring up my after-visit summary on my phone to show them what the dr said, but tbh, I hate the lady exam. They can tell me to relax all they want, but it ain't happening.

But it was still on my mind after finishing up the blood draw and going to the market, so when I got home, I called my Dr's office to ask them about it.

They told me the same thing the receptionist said - that my lady exam is scheduled for Dec 16 and I told them what was on the after-visit summary I got in November and they said they were going to check on that. I was on hold for 15 mins before they came back and said they were still figuring out what happened and would call me back.

and they never called back.

I'm not too fussed about it, but it would have been nice to talk about those results, whatever they would have been, along with the results from the bloodwork that I had done.

Honestly, though, I'm more anxious/curious about the bloodwork. It's going to tell the dr how my thyroid is functioning, my hormone levels, and if that's the cause of my lack of period, and whether I'm diabetic or not. Oh, and check my cholesterol levels.

More about that when I actually get the results.

A portal to another world opens in front of you. You don’t know how long it will stay open or if you’ll be able to get back after you go through. What do you do?
I go through the freakin' portal! Earth has obviously run its course! Peace out, Earthlings!

You find a remote that can rewind, fast forward, stop, and start time. What do you do with it?
Oh, so we're doing that Adam Sandler Click thing. I'm pushing all the buttons. Even the SAP button.

Apparently I'm Chaotic Chaotic right now.

What do you think of buffets?
I like them. a set price for all I can eat? I liked going to Sizzler for that. Then for my niece's (and mine) birthday, we went to a Korean BBQ Buffet place. This happened during covid (in September), so we couldn't go inside to get our food, but I'd go back once this was over.

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The other day a friend gifted me with a subscription to VNYL. Once a month I'll be sent a record of new music. Not necessarily new NEW, but either someone I've never heard of or an artist that I put down on my list of artists that I like.

I think I'll get it on Jan 5, so that gives me time to get to my storage unit and grab my record player. If I remember correctly, it has a cord that can plug into my laptop and I can copy the record to my laptop.

I started working on a ficlet that I'll be sharing on Wednesday for my contribution to 1_million_words Advent event. I'll also share it to my writing journal writergurlscrn and post on AO3. I think this is probably the crackiest thing I've written, but I can't get the image of little kids dancing around to Dominick the Italian Christmas Donkey...and sorry not sorry if the song gets stuck in your head. It's been stuck in mine all while I've been working on it (the last 30 mins or so).

It's been 14 days since we were in contact with the people from church who have (since) tested positive. More test results are coming out, but for myself, Kim, Colleen, and John, we seem to be in the clear. John has 2 dr appts on Monday and I have 1 on Tuesday.

We are still playing it safe because we plan on getting together for Christmas. And I have a feeling that Lora will contact Colleen or me about going to her place the Sunday before to exchange gifts, but with the positive tests from church 2 weeks ago, she will probably wait until January and ask us to have lunch with her for her and Colleen's birthdays.