Lizet's Place

Maybe next time, less planning and more just doing stuff...or doing nothing.

And freaking hell, if something is going to be planned, don't half-ass it!

I swear!

Wednesday we went to the aquarium. I touched sea cucumber poop! hahaha Really, the way the aquarium worker explained it, sea cucumbers are like scavengers and suck up water and other microscopic organisms and when it poops, it's clean sand...that then hardens? I don't even know.

When left there and went to the hotel. We found out our reservation comes with free dinner and breakfast! Score! So we have a late lunch of chicken potpie from a take-out container and some rather bland lemonade. My niece has some wine.

We get up to the room and relax for a bit before my sister begins to get ready for "dress-up dinner".

My niece didn't do her research and every restaurant she looked up and called needed a reservation and/or they were booked, which HELLO! we're in a pandemic! Just because a place is open, doesn't mean you can walk in and ask to be seated. SIGH

My sister STILL wanted to get dressed up, so we did. Took some and then headed to The Sugar Factory and ordered our food to go.

There was drama when we were leaving the parking structure. How I ended up level-headed and being related to my sister, I'll never know.

It started with my sister trying to decide how/when to pay for parking (it was $5 for the first hour and $1 for each additional hour after). I told her that if she waits to pay, she might hold up the exit while she gets out of the car to pay at the machine, so she paid right then. She paid, got her ticket back, and a receipt. She then wanted to eat her fries before they got cold (even though our room has a microwave), so we sat in the car and ate. Once we were finished, SHE COULDN'T FIND THE PARKING TICKET OR RECEIPT!So we spent 10 mins looking for it! She found it and when we go to leave, she puts it in the reader and there's an error. A Parking attendant comes and explains that she has to pay. We all tell the attendant that she did pay before we went to the car and we even got a receipt...but of course she couldn't find it.

This is when my niece gets hot-headed. She tells the attendant to go check the cameras and see that we did pay. The attendant tells her that she doesn't have access to the camera so she can't do that. Jasmine gets even madder all the while I'm trying to help my sister find the receipt and telling her that she needs to clean out her damn wallet. What good are faded receipts going to do for you?!

I get tired of hearing Jasmine nearly berate this attendant and I pull put $5 to pay so we can leave. My sister insists that she has the receipt as proof and HELLO! THE EXIT IS BACKING UP BEHIND US! Finally, she pays with the money I gave her and the attendant was like what do you want me to do with this? *7 million facepalms* *sighs* The attendant eventually takes the parking ticket and money and gets the "correct" receipt and when it gets put in, they want another dollar because we've now been there 2 hours but the attendant overrides than and we can leave.

Jasmine grumbles the whole way, just about, to a friend's house...where the story is recounted again. So I pull out my phone and start playing a game on it until it's time to go.

We get back to the hotel and Jasmine and I decided it was time for bed. My sister was going to watch TV (and still get up early for breakfast...HA)

The next morning we missed breakfast (it was 6-8am) because first, my sister took a shower, and then my niece took one. But we ate our leftover food from the night before, then tried to decide what to do with the day.

Eventually, we settled on The Japanese Friendship Gardens and the zoo. HOWEVER, when we got to the gardens, there was a crazy long line and then we saw how big the gardens were and noped right out of that! We ended up going to the San Diego Museum of Art for about an hour before heading to the zoo. (pictures)

And then more drama.

Andrea put in the GPS how to get to the zoo and it told her to turn at Zoo Dr, but she was going to turn at Zoo Place. I pointed that out to her and she was like "I know..." YET SHE WAS STOPPED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET! There wasn't anyone behind us, but we had the green arrow to turn and the street was clear...but she was still stopped there talking about "no one is behind us..." until someone honked and she sped up to turn! *rolls eyes hard*

Then we start in the line from hell under the sun that was the devil's balls. I proceed to get sick from the heat. Dizzy, nauseous, a headache. I ask an attendant if there's someplace I can sit, so she points me to a shaded rock and 2 other attendants come. One gives me a bottle of water to put on the back of my neck and they tell us that once we're ready to go into the zoo, to go in the side entrance to the ticket booth...and if we aren't able to stay, we can get tickets for another day. I sit there for about 10 mins, feel well enough to go in and we're good...For about 10 minutes. My heart starts racing and I feel dizzy again. This is not good. We go to see if I can rent one of the scooters, but I see there are reservations for it...and the rental fee is $55! Pass! Jasmine and my sister decided to get tickets for another day and we get some souvenirs and then leave.

I feel sad, but fuck...if I can't walk more than 10 mins without my heart racing and feeling dizzy, that's decidedly not good!

We get to San Juan Capistrano before stopping for lunch and a bathroom break. Then back on the road with a stop to pick up my package from Old Navy (clothes I would have worn while in San Diego) and I'm getting dropped off at home.

There are other little bits, like my brother calling while we're in line for the zoo and making plans to go back to San Diego before he leaves AZ in May and how I would rather go to the USS Midway than the zoo...especially if they have that long snaking line.

Pictures here because I don't feel like picking the ones to link.

Went to the Ob-GYN today.

It was very eye-opening and I'm glad I asked my regular dr to make the appt for me to see the Ob.

There is a very high possibility that I have PCOS.

There is an equally high possibility that my mom had it as well as my sister and my niece could have it as well.

Why?

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So yeah. There's all of that.

Tomorrow I have a phone appt with a therapist at 2pm, then on the 20th I have a follow-up phone appt with the main dr. to discuss today's appt as well as tomorrow's therapy and how things went with the ultrasound and ophthalmologist last week.

I am so glad I have health insurance, even if it the basic one from the state.

I didn't mean to go MIA since Jan 7.

Like...it just happened?

I went to the eye dr on Friday. They said there's no infection in my eye, but I could have a slight allergy to something? Neither the opthalmologist nor my regular dr is paying attention to the fact that the excessive eye discharge happens after I drink soda.

It doesn't happen after every time I drink soda, but that's when I notice it happening. So am I sort of allergic to soda? I drink soda at most, once a week. The rest of the time its Bubly or La Croix.

If I always had discharge after drinking soda, I would say no more soda as it's causing the problem, but since it doesn't, I don't know. And the ones who would know say it's an allergy to *something*.

Eventually, I'll have a new eyedrop prescription and an appt to go back to the opthalmologist in April. I also have an appt to see the optometrist on Jan 25 and get new glasses. It's been 4 years since I got my glasses and 2 years since I actually had them checked to make sure I have the right prescription. But now, even with glasses, my distance vision is getting blurry, so it's definitely time to have my eyes checked again.

Saturday I did a bunch of nothing. That's not entirely true. I spent more time doing the spreadsheet for my Color Street business. I worked 8+ hours every day from Wednesday to Sunday but I got all of 2020 sorted. I'll be ready with that information whenever I go to do my taxes. Sunday afternoon I got the spreadsheet for 2021 set up. I need to be on the ball about updating it every month so I don't fall behind and have to catch up at the end of the month or something

We didn't go to church on Sunday. Someone at John's work likely exposed them to covid on Monday or Tuesday and he found out on Thursday. Friday he went to get tested. I don't know if it was a rapid test or not. So yeah. No church yesterday. But we did watch it online. Or tried to. they had technical difficulties, but I got 95% of the service.

And now we're on Monday. More of nothing. I talked to my uncle for all of 2 minutes lol It felt like longer? I think halfway through he forgot who he was talking to? But it was nice to hear from him.

Tomorrow is my OB-GYN appt in the afternoon. Before that, I have an amazon fresh delivery and I'll start on dinner. Some chicken dish that's made in a slow cooker and takes 6 hours to good.

I'm really tired (it's only 5:30 pm here) but I need to start dinner.

OH! Law & Order UK is awesome! I'm on episode 10 of season 1 and it's been great!

This quarantine bites.

Happy 38 to me.

I got to celebrate jointly, like I have the last 5 years or so, with my niece Jasmine. She turned 24 on Sunday.

Here's a group shot before we had Korean BBQ (which I love now).



Here is Jasmine and me.

Its been a while...possibly first time ever...that I've done a personal post, but OMG I'm so anxious about my first video therapy appointment tomorrow morning.

See, my health insurance has been sending automated text messages about taking advantage of the telemedicine option they have with Babylon for the last month or so.

Well last Tuesday I downloaded the app, checked it out and that was it. It wasn't until a friend on FB talked about how she's been feeling since starting therapy that I opened the app back up, answered some basic questions and made a therapy appt for myself. This happened in the course of 8 hours.

Off and on during the week, I've gotten randomly anxious about the upcoming video appointment and now I'm 12 hours away from it and I'm even more anxious.

It was in talking to my best friend on Thursday or Friday that made me realize I really do need therapy. By just talking to her about what I would talk to the therapist about, I was choking up.

So...therapy appointment on Monday at 9am. And I'm nervous (I don't like video calls).

Of course, it would take a fucking pandemic for me to post again. And of course, it’s over a year too.

But I’m freaking out a bit. Not that I’m going to get sick or anything, but being cooped up in the apartment for close to 20 days is what I’m freaking out over.

Sundays are the 1 day that I get out for church, lunch and grocery shopping, but I found out tonight that my Pastor and the church Deacons thought it was best not to have services for 2 weeks. We’ll still have service on the 15th, but not on the 22nd or 29th.

And yes, I decided at the last minute to get a tattoo, so I’ll be out of the apartment on the 17th and then the 27th, 28th, and 29th, I’ll be house sitting and looking after my friend’s mother while she goes to Sacramento for her niece’s wedding (I don’t know if those plans have changed)…and KW has a dr appt April 1 and I have a hair appt April 3rd…then it will be April 5th and back to a regular schedule.

Laying it out like that has calmed me down. I won’t completely be stuck in the apartment, and I’ll have to go out anyway for food (if people in my city haven’t lost their damn minds and bought out Wal-Mart and Target!)

Another thing that’s still affecting me is the ending on Hawaii Five-0. It came as a shock to everyone, but Alex made it clear during an interview about the 200th episode, he was giving the show 2 more years and then he was done. Hmm, 2 more years would be season 10, but the show never did anything to let the fans know that the show was ending. No announcement at the start of season 10…in fact they were introducing a new character who would have potentially joined Five-0…and partnered with Danny. HA! Did they really think Scott, who was doing 5-7 fewer episodes a season, was going to continue on without Alex?! *rolls eyes HARD* so the show dropped the ball in letting the fans know so that we could prepare ourselves. And also the writers could have done a hell of a better job in writing/showing that Alex/Steve would be leaving, and I guess that’s what the final 2 episodes this season was going to be, and season 11 would have picked up without Steve…but they didn’t count on Scott and/or the network pulling that out.

Anyway…stuff has happened in the last year. A lot of stuff and none of it remotely important. I’m still tragically single; my brother is in town for work for the next 6 months. We hung out last weekend – the siblings and my sister’s kids – at the bowling alley and then went to dinner. We’re supposed to take sibling pictures to send a collage to my mom for her birthday (April 20) but that’s going to get pushed back to Mother’s Day. I’m hoping we get to see each other a few more times before he goes back to Florida.

There’s a lot of fun stuff with the church for this year. I was more excited about it at the start of the year than I am now. I blame the country shutting down because of COVID-19 and Trump being useless.

I’ve got a grocery list to make up for Sunday and craft supplies to make sure I have for kid’s Sunday School in case there are any at church.

so apparently the last time I updated was January 21st, and that wasn't even a real update, but an H50 fic rec.

Not much new going on with me. Been at the job for almost 9 and a half months. So much freakin' turn over. I know my time there is even more limited than the temporary status of the job. I've basically gotten two "warnings" that my production levels are too low - once from an on-site supervisor and the second time from the temp agency manager handling my assignment. Part of me wants to make it to a year because it'll look good on my resume, but I think at this point, 9 months will also look good, especially after being unemployed for nearly 2 years. I just desperately need something permanent and that would allow for me to get a car and my own place (though I wouldn't pass up having a roommate because I don't think I'd do well complately on my own). And my work days have changed (this happened shortly after Easter). I now have Sunday and Monday as my off days. I've enjoyed being able to go back to church on Sundays. Lately, though, we've been doing 6 days and 10 hours a day so I haven't had a Monday off since the schedule change. But then Tuesday that changed again when the 6th day and OT was cancelled. This coming Monday will be my first one off since April 4th!

Still living with my sister. Been giving her money for rent since February (and getting reciepts). There are good and bad moments with being here. The bad only really happen when my niece and nephew get into fights/arguments with her about their lack of jobs and/or them being in school because she then turns it around on me by either finding something else I need to help contribute to or she'll ask about how my job search is going or if I've found an apartment. As much as I want her to tell her to back the fuck off, I can't. I'm basically at her mercy with no place else to go...so I nod along and then vent online. But mostly I keep it inside and deal with the stress induced hives as a result.

I'm back in school! I applied and registered at the community college down the street from me. My class starts on Monday and is 8 weeks long. I've been looking forward to this for 3 months! Thankfully the supervisor at work approved my modified schedule (5:30am-12:30pm) on the days I have class (Tuesday-Thursday; Monday is my day off)

Hmm whatelse...My mom. I'm going to see her soon! She'll be coming out here July 26th to the 2nd week in August, I beleieve...however 1 week she and my sister will be in Hawaii on the trip that would have been my sister's honeymoon. We're going to spend the time that's she's actually IN California to clean out the storage unit and hopefully consoldate everything into 1 unit and save us money.

I guess that's everything. No telling when I'll update again. Hopefully it won't be another 21 weeks between updates!

I got a call from the mortuary. They got a date from Riverside National Cemetery. The next available date for services is December 1 at 1:45 pm.

HOLY COW! That's in 12 days away and 20 days after his death!

I get it's first come, first serve kind of thing, but it just seems like too much time. Make me want to find out how many services a day they do that's given us a date that's so far away.

But I'm also assuming that since things have gone forward, that the mortuary got their money from the life insurance my mom had through her job and that by the end of this month we should be getting the remaining money. I also need to go to the Social Security office with my mom to sort out the survivors benefits stuff my mom should be getting from my dad's social security, but we can't do that until we get the death certificate.



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Today's my Dad's memorial/funeral service.

After the service we're going over to my mom's cousin's house for lunch. I really really don't want to. So many thing I don't want to do but will because I don't want people to tell me anything.

One day I'll feel more like an adult and can feel comfortable telling people in my family no and stick to it.

My apartment is filled with people. I shared a room with my mom. I just want to sleep/veg away.

My friend thinks I might be a little bit depressed. I know I was over summer, I probably still could be.

Jasmine and I are going to get somewhat matching tattoos in honor of my dad (her grandpa) the next time we get money.

We have been told to discontinue giving him all food/liquids since he is unable to swallow and if we try to give him anything, he could choke. He is also being switched to a pain patch to make him comfortable. With the discontinuation of food/liquids, the doctor says that we shouldn't expect him to live past 7 days. We will be sent a nurse to be with us/him 24/7 until he passes away.

I've called my brother, sister and aunt and sent an email to our Pastor. My aunt is going to call her siblings (she's my dad's sister) to let them know. I haven't actually been able to get a hold of my sister, but I left her a message asking to call me back when she gets the chance.

My mom is calling the rest of the family (her side) to let them know.