Today is only Wednesday?!
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simplyn2deepJust wondering
What makes you say “What was I thinking?” when you look back on your life?
Not pushing hard enough with my dad for going to the university that was offering me a scholarship
What is something that can’t be taught and can only be learned with age
How to love.
What’s the most surprising self-realization you’ve had?
I don't think I've had one yet? Or maybe that a lot of the people I consider to be close friends don't consider me to be a close friend of theirs.
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Went to the dr to review my lab results. She said everything was "normal", which I call BS.
TMI below for why I call BS.
From the time I got my period at 12 or 13, I've NEVER been regular.
In fact, without the aid of BC, I go YEARS without one. Then I'll decide "oh, let me do BC..." so I'll get a 3-month prescription, but never go back for more.
There was one memorable time where I bled off and on for 45 days! I didn't have insurance to go to a dr and I didn't want to go to PP. I just dealt with it.
Now though...I'm 38 and I may or may not want kids in the next 2-5 years, so I need to see what's going on inside my body.
I have this new state insurance (I've had it since 2014), so I go and tell the dr what's going on. She tells me to lose weight and my hormones will sort themselves out, or I can go on BC.
I think I opted for BC but only did it for a month. I didn't talk with the dr again about my lack of period for a few years. Now we're n 2017 and as a side note I mention to the dr again about my lack of period. Again she tells me lose weight or BC. I opt for BC, do it for 3 months and never do it again.
Now we're in 2020. I'm tired of the "lose weight or BC" dr, so I get a new one. I saw her in November. She listened to everything I said and she said she wanted blood work to see what was going on. Now we're in December. Last week I had the blood work and today I had the results. Plus a pap smear (HATE IT! but at least the speculum wasn't metal like it was 2 or 3 years ago when I had it done).
That's where she said everything was normal, but clearly it's not. Even my BFF who has been dealing with all sorts of health problems said they weren't normal when I show her some of my results.
I asked my dr if there was a way to check me for PCOS. She said yes and that could be a likely cause for me not having my period, oh and it could also be why my results say I'm pre-diabetic (which previous dr told me but never followed up on). She says she's going to schedule an appt with an ob-gyn for me and then put in a request for an ultrasound to check my ovaries.
So, I left today's dr appt with 3 more appointments and a note that the ultrasound request was sent to my insurance (the refferal request expires in like 6 months...I guess that could be how long it takes for the state insurance to approve or deny the request?". OB-GYN in January, Behavioral health telephone visit in January (I've been depressed since my mom left 6 months after my dad's death in 2015, I need to see someone about this) and then a follow up with my dr, also in January.
I spent $31 on a bra that doesn't fit me right - the cup size is okay, the band size is too tight.
Because I'm fatter than I was the last 3 Christmases, I'm self-conscious about the dresses I would normally wear, so I bought myself a new top and I'll wear a black skirt. The top should arrive on Friday.
Thankfully I still have money to get my hair done on Friday so I'm super looking forward to that. I might also buy some makeup while I'm out to practice more.
And now it's time for bed. I can't believe today is only Wednesday!
What makes you say “What was I thinking?” when you look back on your life?
Not pushing hard enough with my dad for going to the university that was offering me a scholarship
What is something that can’t be taught and can only be learned with age
How to love.
What’s the most surprising self-realization you’ve had?
I don't think I've had one yet? Or maybe that a lot of the people I consider to be close friends don't consider me to be a close friend of theirs.
======
Went to the dr to review my lab results. She said everything was "normal", which I call BS.
From the time I got my period at 12 or 13, I've NEVER been regular.
In fact, without the aid of BC, I go YEARS without one. Then I'll decide "oh, let me do BC..." so I'll get a 3-month prescription, but never go back for more.
There was one memorable time where I bled off and on for 45 days! I didn't have insurance to go to a dr and I didn't want to go to PP. I just dealt with it.
Now though...I'm 38 and I may or may not want kids in the next 2-5 years, so I need to see what's going on inside my body.
I have this new state insurance (I've had it since 2014), so I go and tell the dr what's going on. She tells me to lose weight and my hormones will sort themselves out, or I can go on BC.
I think I opted for BC but only did it for a month. I didn't talk with the dr again about my lack of period for a few years. Now we're n 2017 and as a side note I mention to the dr again about my lack of period. Again she tells me lose weight or BC. I opt for BC, do it for 3 months and never do it again.
Now we're in 2020. I'm tired of the "lose weight or BC" dr, so I get a new one. I saw her in November. She listened to everything I said and she said she wanted blood work to see what was going on. Now we're in December. Last week I had the blood work and today I had the results. Plus a pap smear (HATE IT! but at least the speculum wasn't metal like it was 2 or 3 years ago when I had it done).
That's where she said everything was normal, but clearly it's not. Even my BFF who has been dealing with all sorts of health problems said they weren't normal when I show her some of my results.
I asked my dr if there was a way to check me for PCOS. She said yes and that could be a likely cause for me not having my period, oh and it could also be why my results say I'm pre-diabetic (which previous dr told me but never followed up on). She says she's going to schedule an appt with an ob-gyn for me and then put in a request for an ultrasound to check my ovaries.
So, I left today's dr appt with 3 more appointments and a note that the ultrasound request was sent to my insurance (the refferal request expires in like 6 months...I guess that could be how long it takes for the state insurance to approve or deny the request?". OB-GYN in January, Behavioral health telephone visit in January (I've been depressed since my mom left 6 months after my dad's death in 2015, I need to see someone about this) and then a follow up with my dr, also in January.
I spent $31 on a bra that doesn't fit me right - the cup size is okay, the band size is too tight.
Because I'm fatter than I was the last 3 Christmases, I'm self-conscious about the dresses I would normally wear, so I bought myself a new top and I'll wear a black skirt. The top should arrive on Friday.
Thankfully I still have money to get my hair done on Friday so I'm super looking forward to that. I might also buy some makeup while I'm out to practice more.
And now it's time for bed. I can't believe today is only Wednesday!
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Date: 2020-12-17 12:42 pm (UTC)Enjoy having your hair done! You'll have to post a selfie when it's done.
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Date: 2020-12-17 02:43 pm (UTC)