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Jan 2nd I found out that dude from the church has a girlfriend and I only found out because Colleen's husband overheard him at the men's Christmas dinner talking about how he took his girlfriend to the beach.

Well, that's not me! we hadn't gone since before my surgery at the end of July.

Then! I have sex with the ass the day after he's overheard saying he has a girlfriend! But I don't find out about it FOR 19 DAYS when Colleen casually tells me this story that John had told her.

And then January 2 rolls around Colleen has John tell me exactly went down at the Men's Christmas dinner and that's when I decide to confront him, via text.

I don't know if stuff was getting lost in translation but something was. It's easier to just post screenshots of the conversation than to explain what happened.

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Words have fucking meaning! You tell someone you have a girlfriend, that implies RELATIONSHIP! While there was no label on what he and I were, he should have been fucking honest with me that he was talking to someone else. I wouldn't have had sex with him 3 times, whether or not he had a girlfriend at any point during those 3 times!

I don't see him Jan 9 because the church is closed (the Pastor was informed that he was around someone who tested positive at his job, so he was being cautious), but I do see him the following weekend on Jan 15/16. The 15th for a church clean-up: his face was continuously pinched, especially when his mother gave me a hug and some food...and he gave me like 4 weird hugs when no one was around...like my anger was due to him not hugging me enough or some shit. Jan 16 was regular church and again, he tried to cop feels and I kept pulling away from him and pushing him away from me saying not to touch me and that he lied to me. I walked away and didn't look back.

During the week, specifically Jan 19, he texts me asking if he can come over. No sir. Well...just read the texts.

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sorry if I hurt you...IF!? You don't call someone a side-chick, then turn around and say you don't have a girlfriend (making the side-chick comment a moot point) and expect there not to be hurt fucking feelings. No. You're a fully grown-ass adult. at 42 you know fucking better. And you don't know why you hurt me? fuck you very much! But thanks for acknowledging that I didn't do anything to deserve what was done to me!

Grandma from church was right. He doesn't know what he wants.

And what's a damn shame.

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Better things in another post. This is my last semester at LBCC and I'll be transferring in either the Spring or Fall of 2023. I have 3 or 4 universities in mind.
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It's so stupid how fucked up this guy has me.

I wasted a fucking year talking to this guy and getting to know him thinking that it was going to go somewhere only to find out 3 weeks before a year that no it's not going anywhere.

Part of me wants to think that there was something lost in the communication of the question that I asked him.

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Another part of me is just like okay let me get over this and be done with it because it's really screwing me up.

I'm not saying that a lot of my life was wrapped up in him but I saw a lot of potential for stuff that we could do together to get to know each other more but it's obvious that we weren't on the same page with this.

And I'm back again to feeling like I wasted a year of my time...not that I would have been putting myself out there anyway.

And I can't forget about this overwhelming desire to want to be a bitch to him and make a huge stink about this but I really can't because the only time that we see each other is Sundays at church and I don't want people in my business like that.

I want to scream and cry over this and I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. I have my best friend on my side and I've talked to her about it, but it's not helping like I thought it would.

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